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27 June 2012 @ 01:30 am
I think this qualifies for worst summer ever. It's hot, like way hot, but that's not even the bad part. That Waldo Canyon fire up near the Springs has pushed my sister and I up to Denver (though not out of necessity) and now it looks as though my other sister and my father will be heading off to Kearney, Nebraska or something because it's effecting them and there's probably no more rooms left in Denver and they can't stay here because they're allergic to the dog. So there's a chance that this wildfire will separate my family for some time as well as take some of our stuff, and I really don't want to be split from any of my family. Not at all. I need us to stay together. I need it!

I really hope the firefighters can get this damn thing under control soon, before it destroys Colorado Springs, before it ruins my home.
26 June 2012 @ 03:28 am
Well here's something I thought I'd never say: I'm excited for the 3rd and 4th of July, it's supposed to get down into the high 80s. Yes! You read that right! Down into the high 80s. 89F and I'm excited because that's fairly cool for recently. What is my life? Ah, but for those weeks past when I thought 85 was hot and going to be the death of me.
06 June 2012 @ 08:04 pm
So. It's hot as shit. And now it's humid. And I'm caught in the middle of a fucking hailstorm that's trying to destroy the earth. Fun times. But at least I'm at home.
24 May 2012 @ 10:26 pm
Holy crap, oh my god. I'm dying here. I'm dying! It's too funny! See, I find this manga, and it looks pretty good so I check out, and then pretty much read because it mentions baseball (WOOOOO! Yeah baseball!) And then I fall in love because the art is amazing and the storytelling/plot is really good too, plus the characters! ~swoons~ And then (here's where I start dying) I get to the third chapter and it's like reading an Ao no Exorcist doujinshi! I'm in love. This is amazing. You cannot stop me from thinking that it's BonRin (which I've been dying for) even though I know it's not. So... yeah, best manga ever. I love the artist to fucking death now.
22 May 2012 @ 11:36 pm
I gotta tell you. I'm PISSED that he thinks I'm not doing anything, that he thinks I'm not thinking about my future, that he thinks I WANT to be the way I am.

I am PISSED. I am tired of it. Simply because I don't do anything in front of you doesn't mean I'm not doing anything. So, you know what, fuck him. Especially when he tells me that I need to think about who I want to be and what I want to do. What does he think I've been doing my whole DAMNED life?! I'm constantly wondering, constantly worrying, constantly in fear because I still can't figure it out. I don't know where I'm going or what I'm doing. I already feel fucking lost and telling me that I need to figure the rest of my life out right fucking now isn't fucking helping.

I'm tired of this.
03 May 2012 @ 02:34 am
I suddenly and very rapidly just depressed myself by thinking about living without my sisters. We've been together our whole fucking lives, y'know. They're my best friends but better.

Guess I didn't really realize until just now that whenever I imagine myself in the future the three of us are still together...

God I'm such a sap.

But I mean, here I am, sitting around talking about how I'll move up to Denver to live with my mom, just to escape my dad and I'm not thinking about how much of a bitch I'm being to my sisters. I'm not thinking about how I wouldn't be coming back here everyday and spending time with them. I know I kept talking about how worried I was about leaving them alone together (at least partially jokingly) but I guess I forgot that meant not just leaving them alone, it meant leaving them. I don't think I like that... I think... I really don't like that... 60 miles suddenly seems way too far away.

God... fucking feels...
02 May 2012 @ 02:53 am
It's so difficult putting thoughts into words. It's easy to form the words, form sentences, but nothing really conveys the feelings, the sentiment behind what is in my head. Words alone, in print or on paper, are not enough to explain everything.

...I hate that...
28 March 2012 @ 03:17 am

These stupid, little, idiotic girls that my fandom seems to be infested with. (Yes, that's the right word: infested, like the swarm of unwanted pests they are.) I can understand liking a character and wanting to defend them, but some of the shit they come up with! They're woobifying these guys! And it's really annoying and appalling.
Take, for example, Abe. Abe is a good character. He's also popular, attractive for a 2D guy, and in several of the most popular pairings. But he's a bit of a manipulative bastard who gets angry extremely easily (at least so far as Mihashi is concerned) and most certainly rarely seems to understand how his actions could be misunderstood. (Dude, there's a reason he has no friends, seriously.) I love him. Abe's probably my favorite and I can understand that he's not a great guy. But these girls! They don't see that apparently. And when he's actually in-character in fanstuff they think he's being the worst person ever. To quote one "I actually got mad at Abe for being so insensitive! Bad Abe!" Wait... what? He's always like that. Always! So how on earth is he being any worse than usual that you would get mad at him for it? In fact, he was actually being nicer than usual! No noogies, no yelling for silly reasons. He was making a rational decision to help the team. And apparently this means he's not acting like himself. ...I don't understand.
Then there's Haruna. Haruna who used to be something of a background character but is apparently a fan favorite so now he shows up fucking everywhere. I hate him. I have little to say about him aside from the fact that his fans have turned into the poor-little-boy-who-needs-protecting. Because he's so fucking fragile, you know? 6 feet tall, super strong, and probably more than a little spoiled (which they don't seem to notice), clearly he's delicate. So, of course, when he gets into a fight with his longtime friend it's the friend who gets all the blame! His friend is the one who should feel guilty for letting down Haruna when Haruna should have no fucking say in the matter anyway! (Hell, he should barely feel let down, because he already knew his friend had different goals! So why should the friend feel guilty about not wanting to play ball in the same way Haruna does, just because Haruna wants him too!) But no, because Haruna was the one who felt hurt he shouldn't have to understand that his friend feels differently but will still do what he can to help Haruna. No, his friend now needs to feel all the pain because it was definitely his fault that the precious baby's feelings are hurt.

...Okay, previous ranting aside. No, this is not about the characters. This is not about hating either Abe (which I don't) or Haruna (which I do but is probably not relevant). This is about hating the fans who completely alter characters and their personalities because they can't imagine their favorites being wrong or behaving badly in any way even if it's in their fucking character! I sort of fell this way about any alterations in character. It's like that person who said that they didn't think Romano was a coward when it was blatantly shown by the creator that he was worse than his already super-cowardly brother. (I mean, did we not see him hide behind Germany when the ever-useless France showed up? I'm pretty sure we did.) Or how people will draw these super big, incredibly happy smiles on the faces of stoic/grumpy characters like Norway or Romano (that's just creepy you guys). Why do they do this? I don't get it. Why can't you actually see who the character is, flaws and all?

Well that got a bit long... and doesn't seem to convey what I meant at all, but I've never been particularly handy with words you see. Meh, whatever, maybe when I wake up tomorrow and see this I'll see things differently, but I sort of doubt that for a lot of this.

23 March 2012 @ 03:58 am
So... that worked too well...
Found this Oofuri video with this hilarious/disturbing song Creeping up on You, but wanted to do a Hetalia slideshow with it. So, after nitpicking my way through pairs and pictures I put together some shots of the Italies... cause I'm apparently abnormal like that. It worked scarily well. Uhhhmmm... yeah... Jesus...